Fuck off that is. What an absolutely bloody miserable day at work. Or was it a really good one? I’ll be buggered if I knew. For once when I needed it to be a crazy day it wasn’t. It’s bad enough that R keeps badgering me to come back in Dec and akks is starting to get on the same train, but the two couldn’t shut it for a bit. And off all the things I needed as I rolled into work was a text from the very reason I don’t want to go back this December (well 55.99% of the reason I don’t want to go back).
I don’t know whether to be bummed or strangely elated to be missed. Like I needed my head fucked or fucked again if I go down for three years in a row. I’d much rather freeze my ass off with a bottle of rum and a blonde, mindless sudhu badhuwa when the winter season comes around. Get drunk and have mindless sex. Hopefully at her place so I can get the hell out the next morning without that breakfast awkwardness.
What pisses me off is I still don’t know if I’m pissed or happy. Fuck.
hmmm….
Make a choice…fast.. and then you’ll know..:-)
Comment by Lady divine — August 14, 2007 @ 3:42 am
Hmmm.. although you were complaining
You sounded happy when i spoke to you.. So I say you were not pissed!! But next time.. run to the phone faster.. i cant keep waiting all day you know!!
Comment by Mr. Evil — August 14, 2007 @ 4:14 am
Oh dear, that does sound rather serious. When I can’t figure out why I’m pissed off, I either write it all out to try and figure it out (as you have over here) or I just shrug and go to sleep hoping to have pleasant dreams of the people responsible for my bad mood being castrated with a butter knife.
Regarding the text you got, let me just say I know how irritating mind-games can be, ignoring it is usually what works best. Goodluck!
You know you can always try playing runescape..nothing helps a bad mood like going off into the wilderness to pwn some noobs!
Comment by Darwin — August 14, 2007 @ 7:27 am
try tossing a coin..heads - you come, tails - you don’t..that way, whether you stay or not if it gets fucked up you can blame the coin..see, aren’t i a born problem solver..=)
ps - i don’t mean to be flippant about your issue, so no offence..
Comment by pissu perera — August 14, 2007 @ 7:50 am
LD – I’ve made the decision, I think my mixed feelings are actually not related to the decision I made about not going back. Well not directly related anyways…this is all very confusing…my solution – head in the sand, ignore all else and just get drunk in Vegas this season
Evil – bugger I’m always happy to hear a familiar voice, well when its at a decent hour anyways
Darwin – I think I like my friends too much to castrate them with a butter knife…also one is a girl so that might be a bit…well..tough to do:)
Thakns for the runescape tip…that sounds a lot better than getting drunk and shagging a random blonde…errmm…wait a minute
Pissu – no offence taken at all…as I told LD, decision has been made…mixed feelings are due to something else…
Comment by childof25 — August 15, 2007 @ 7:41 pm
ahh the mindfuck.. all over again.. but as E said i get the feeling deep down u were happy
Comment by savi3 — August 18, 2007 @ 2:14 pm