It must be something in the stars, or at least that’s what the astrologer that I was dragged to while I was back home told me. Last week was tough, the learning curve I have to suffer through is ridiculous and ten hours daily grind is starting to sap whatever optimism I’ve managed to salvage over the last few months. Even the fact that I am not alone in my misery, that this feeling of darkness and despair is prevalent from the San Fernando Valley, to Colombo and the northern territories of Australia is not enough to cure what appears to be a decline down to manic depressiveness. Yet I’m still an optimist, I tell myself that no matter how long and dark that tunnel is there will be light at the end of it. That it’s just a matter of surviving, taking it a day at a time. And hopefully sometime there will be that light at the end of the tunnel, perhaps in the form of a sunset by a warm tropical beach.
Oh yeah this bad time is supposed to last until mid July, why do I doubt the veracity of that? The weekend is ticking away, maybe a trip to the gym, get some endorphins pumping, stop the insanity chewing away at my grey matter.

we all have our bad times… infact, I’m in a major struggle too.. But I think, I’ve got no choice but to live thru all these battles.. So yes, there will be a light at the end of the travel. Lets hope we all see it soon..:-)
Comment by Lady divine — May 7, 2007 @ 5:39 am
Hehee Northern Aussie eh? I’ve just had three-days off thanks to it being a long weekend and I’ve realised that I am perfectly happy when I don’t have to go into work. Ok so I’m still not the annoyingly happy, but I’m still nowhere near as depressed as I was last week. I really think I’m allergic to work!
Comment by Darwin — May 7, 2007 @ 5:30 pm
If you were a girl, I’d tell you to buy a huge tub of chocolate ice cream and watch Love Actually by yourself (with said tub of ice cream)…but you’re not, so I guess the movie bit won’t work.
When I’m depressed, I sleep. Things are always better when you wake up, even if it’s for that split second until you remember what happened the day before. If sleep doesn’t cure it, I go away for a day…I just get on the train and go. Yes my troubles are all waiting for me when I get back, but I’ve given my head a break…and that’s usually all it needs.
The light is always at the end of the tunnel…you just can’t see it with a blindfold on
(no, I have no clue what possessed me to say that)
Comment by PseudoRandom — May 7, 2007 @ 8:40 pm
LD - survival is the key word I guess…and what to do…probably my anthem for the late twenties
Darwin - hehe…I must say every time I go into work I start sneezing…not sure what thats about!?
Pseudorandom - I actually like that movie! (shhh…u didnt hear that from me though)..and I guzzled a bottle of wine by myself on Friday instead of ice cream…which was a bit depressing cos I’ve never really drunk by myself before…oh well…hmm…not sure what to say bout the blindfold comment:)
Comment by childof25 — May 8, 2007 @ 3:58 am