Ah two days without nicotine, substituted with exercise…the only problem being that working out has to be taken in one to one and half hour chunks, as opposed to five minute intervals to break the monotony of job searching. Almost got up at least five times to get the car keys and swing by the corner store, actually did get in the car once but forced myself to just go to the post office to mail R’s jackets to Australia. Again I’m not sure how that’s cost effective as opposed to him buying two Down Under, but who am I to judge craziness, what with my sanity hanging by the proverbial thread.

Had some rather odd thoughts go through my head today, mostly due to the lack of nicotine. One was bout vices, believe it or not I’ve also decided to go off chocolate. Apart from half a tub of B & J’s over the weekend to accompany a movie marathon of Munich and Domino I haven’t had anything chocolate (OK, the fat free marble cake piece from Trader Joes doesn’t count, I’ve had toes that tasted more of chocolate…apologies for any retching feelings generated by that statement, its just alliteration not under any circumstances to be taken literally). No booze either since there’s really no one entertaining to drink with, the fam can’t handle their booze for shit, and get really loud and annoying…sorta what I would imagine I’m like drunk from the outside…ah well…genetics…inescapable yeah?

I don’t even have a ‘friend with benefits’ around (not that that’s an exceptionally common occurrence, but I have had my run of luck in the past) and I’m starting to regret giving up on the action Jackson that was on offer over the holiday season for the greater good in SL. Especially since the greater good in question probably has no idea that I gave up some nubile, lovely (OK one was a bit of a six drinker) females who offered no strings attached romps in the hay so to speak….sigh…..T mentioned I should mention it to her, but how exactly does one do that, “oh yeah I could have had her but I said no. Her I could have contracted some spectacular diseases with but I demurred”…yeah…no….I guess rebuilding a reputation (well building one rather) and gaining said greater good’s trust is not going to be that easy.

Neither for that matter is giving up smoking, or chocolate, or talking random shit….especially since the latter is a direct consequence of the two former. Getting employed is pretty tough as well…not that I’ve tried exceptionally hard….must fix that….tomorrow, always tomorrow. I’m the fucking king of procrastination, just need to find a country to get crowned in. Well I have my list for tonight, gonna get cracking…enough randomness tonight for the benefit of humankind.